Rose Tattoo and other things....

I love this tattoo!!  I have been wanting to get a red rose with thorns for my dad.  He loved them!  I know that the thorns have a different meaning, but I just want it there since there is a big importance about the "Thorne" name.  I love the fact that this one is beautiful but somewhat manly at the same time.

I love the simplicity of this one!!  I probably wouldn't have the rose part at the bottom though.  Another thing is that I don't know where to put it.  I don't want to put it on my back, b/c then I won't see it.  Then I don't want it to put it where it could be easily seen.  Plus, I don't want to have it in a place where it's going to be extremely painful either.  I was thinking about putting it on my other wrist, but then I'll have to wear a thick watch or something to cover it up. 

{Another subject}

I do believe I'm Good Luck Chuck, just a female version.  If you have never seen that movie then you should go rent it right now!  Naw, but it's about a guy that believes he's cursed.  Every woman that he is with will end up marrying the next guy after him.  Then he finds someone that he wants to be with, and he's scared about the curse.  Then the story goes on.  It's a awesome movie!!! 

Anyway, I always joke about how I'm Good Luck Chuck.  Well it's starting to look like I really am.  I mean one guy that I thought would never get married, has gotten married.  I mean he didn't like the whole commitment thing and he just enjoyed the single life more than being settled down with someone.  It just goes to show that if someone meets the right person than they will put old habits away, and do right by the other person.  There is some hope out there.

{My Day}

 Today was a rough day!!  We had 7 providers at our office.  Granted some of them only had at most 15 patients, but that was an extra 15 patients I had to check out.  It was just plain crazy!! 

My coworkers think I'm crazy for going bowling on my lunch break.  I love it!  Nobody is there, and I can just bowl without worrying about the other bowlers beside me.  I bowled two games today : 156 and 166.  I'm getting better.  :) 

After work me and my buddies walked around the building.  I'm telling you the stairs is what kills me!  lol.  But if that was cut out then there would be no need to do it.  I like the fact there is some difference in our walking, like changing up the pace and everything. 

Today was a good day all around.  I didn't want to stab anybody with a fork, so it was a good day!  lol.  Tomorrow I will be bowling with my sister, and spending time with her.  Plus, it should be an easier day tomorrow than it was today.  :) 

Oh so many things to talk about.....



Oh my goodness!!  That is a big difference!!  This weekend I went to get my hair done.  I love having the blonde in my hair, but the hassle was not worth it.  I mean you can easily see the roots and everything.  Plus, when it was colored it changed the texture of my hair, and made it tangled easily.  And if you know me, you know that I love my hair, and I don't want it to be damaged or anything.   I still have some blonde left in it, but not as much.  You can't really tell in the pic above.  Also, I like being as natural as I can.  As you can see I don't have any makeup on in the "after" picture.  The most I ever put on is eyeliner and mascara like the "before" picture. 

It has taken me a long time to realize that if I'm happy with myself then everybody else's opinion doesn't matter.  Don't get me wrong, I will listen to my friends and take that into account but ultimately I have to be happy with it.  I like wearing my t-shirts and blue jeans.  I like not having to worry about makeup, and just enjoying being myself.  People tell me that I need to be more like a grown up......why?  Why is it that putting on makeup makes you a grown woman?  It doesn't to me!  You can put on all the makeup you want, but if you're still a ugly person inside, it doesn't matter.  Also, it doesn't make you grown, all it does is hides your flaws.  Weddings, formal events, and other things yes I will put on makeup, but other than that NOPE! I'll just put on my usual, or nothing at all.    I mean if you wear makeup, that's fine.  I don't care if you do.  If you feel more comfortable that way, awesome!  But as far as me goes, don't tell me that I need to wear makeup to be a grown woman. 

{Another Rant}

Last night I had sudden realization that most people you meet can not be trusted.  I say this because it's discouraging to me.  I have always tried keep faith in people.  Until it's completely shattered by no means of return.  I know that people make mistakes and that try to cover them up.  I get that.  But why all the backstabbing and two face people.  I mean what has happened with being honest as a core value.  I try my best to stay honest and true.  Granted sometimes it's hard, but I try.  But to set out and try to be those things (backstabbing and two faced).....is a totally different issue.  I mean why would you want to waste your time doing that?  Because once someone finds out, you're most likely going to lose some friends or allies (hate to say it, but it's like a game for some people).   I'm just so disappointed in some people these days. 

{On a lighter note}

I have started bowling on my lunch break.  I usually bowl only one game, but that's good enough for me.  I have also started walking with my buddies at work.  I'm trying to get back to being active.  I miss bowling in league, and having competetion.  I might be getting me a bowling ball (YAY!).  I'm super excited about that.  I can't wait to get it, and start bowling again (like seriously).  Using a houseball is good and all, but if you want to get better, you can't with the houseball.  It's best to have your own ball, so you can get consistent.  I used to bowl in the 180's.  Now I'm hitting anywhere between 130 to 160ish.  I used to win first place in the women's high scores in leagues.  Also, I used to win tournaments.  I remember when I would bowl with my ex in scotch doubles.  And when the people see us coming, they would say "Why do we even bother?"  We used to take 1st place everytime!  I miss that!  (The winning part, lol.)  People tell me that I'm such a good bowler, and that it's a waste that I'm not doing it anymore.  Well I have decided I'm going to get back into it.  And I'm not going to let anyone ruin it for me. 

Sorry that it's so long, but told ya there was so many things to talk about.  I'm going to go enjoy the rest of my weekend, and hope you do the same!!  :) 

Happy Birthday card

I made this card for my friend at work.  She is going to see her sister this weekend for her birthday.  She loves butterflies, and this one is so cute!!  I used Create a Critter Cricut cartridge for the butterfly.  Also, I'm going to add some more stuff to make it pop! 

{Different Subject}

I'm totally clueless when it comes to the dating life.  I mean seriously one time a guy was using a pick up line, and I took it literally.  He just kept on, and I didn't understand why.  Until after he left, my guy friends that was with me explained to me that he was trying to pick me up.  I was like oh.....my bad.  lol.  The guy was such a cutie too!  He probably thought I wasn't interested. 

I just wish it was just straight forward, no games, nothing.  Just tell me how you feel, or ask me straight out.  Because I will otherwise have no clue.  People are always telling me that I won't get married or anything like that.  Might be true, but I would like to think that I have a fighting chance. 

Anyway, I started taking be-HOT by GNC.  It's suppose to give you energy and all that good stuff.  So far it WORKS!!!  I haven't felt sluggish since I have started taking it.  I would highly recommend it to anyone that needs an extra boost throughout the day!! 

Tomorrow is going to be a light day!!  WOOHOO!  Gonna head to bed.  Goodnite everyone!

$1.50ish Dry Erase Board

Howdy!!  This weekend was great!!  From start to finish.  :)   Loved catching up with some old friends and making some new ones.  :)   Also, I made some cheap dry erase boards for my friends at work.   It only cost me about $1.50 at the most for each one.  All you need is a $1 plastic picture frame (dollar tree has them), piece of white cardstock, piece of color cardstock, and something to decorate it with.  I will include directions at the end of the post. 

Here are some pics of the ones that I have made for the girls:

Besides these being super cheap, the markers won't stain the plastic.  I always hated when the markers started staining the boards, and you couldn't get it back to it's original white color.  These won't do it!!  Also since it's in a picture frame, you can change the inside of it.  So if you want to put something in there that is for Easter, you can make the inside and change it out!!  These boards are great for your office space, kitchen, or anywhere you want to jot down a note.  This will save on paper, and you can recycle old plastic frames to make this.  I'm not trying to be all tree hugger on you guys, but I'm all about saving money!!  

Well I gotta head to bed, but I hope ya'll will enjoy this!!  I know I did!  :) 

Directions:  (assuming it's a 5x7 picture frame)

1.  Cut color cardstock at 5 x 7
2.  Cut white cardstock at 4.75 x 6.75 
3.  Decorate it (stamp it, emboss it, color it, etc.) 
4.  Glue the white cardstock to the color cardstock.
5.  Insert into picture frame.
6.  Enjoy! 

***If you have a different size picture frame, just take a .25 inch off of the original measurements for the white cardstock.  Example :  4 x 6 picture frame:  3.75 x 5.75 white cardstock.  ***

Fat

I hate the word "fat."  It just so negative!  When people describe someone, they are meaning it in a bad way.  Granted that if someone is at a unhealthy weight limit, then they should lose weight.  But why not use a nicer word like "thick", "heavy", or "round"?   I know that I'm on the heavier side than I would like, but growing up being called fat chick was not good for me.  If people would be more considerate of others' feelings, then it would be a better world.  But I can dream, right?

Anyway, I made some cards for my co-worker.  And the funny thing is that I'm against Valentine's day.  I have always disliked it even when I had someone to share it with.  I think it's dumb to set one day aside to express their love for one another on one day.  It should be everyday! 

Here you go:

I like the second one the best, but that's my style.  My friend likes the first one, but that's her. lol.  I hope she enjoys them.  I'm hoping that I will get better at it.  I have seen some that are so detailed and very pretty.  I guess practice makes perfect.  :)

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It's been a long time....

Wow!  I can't believe it's been over a year since my last post.  A lot has changed since then.  If it didn't then it would be kinda of scary and depressing.  Anyway, I felt like I should post something.  I love having these overwhelming urges to do something.  Usually it deals with me spending money, which everyone knows I don't like doing. lol.  

On to my point of wanting to do a post.  I have started making cards, and would like to go into more paper crafts.  Here is my first card I made:

 I cut the flower from the Cricut Expression.  The bottom I made the impression myself (might need to invest in a embossing machine).  It took me maybe 30 mins to make.  It took me longer to figure out what colors to use.  lol.  

I have made others as well.....here they go: 

I cut the tree using Cricut Expression.  I also used Mini Brads in the top right hand corner.  Just so CUTE!!

I stamped the butterfly on a circle of white cardstock.  Then I used color pencils to color in.  I would like to get a pastel set to use to color images, but color pencils is a good medium to use.

I like the fact that this one is so simple but yet so pretty!   I embossed a section of the pink cardstock.  Then I carefully put glue on the raised parts and added glitter. 

I orginally made the owl for the card above, but couldn't figure out where to put it.  So I decided to make another card.  I used a Martha Stewart punch for the border, and then used mini brads on the corners. 

This one is one of the most recent ones I have made.  I used glitter glue in the spots of the flower and mini brads on the top right hand corner. 

I love making cards.  My favorite part is the stamping!!  I don't know much about the different types of stamps and the inks, but I'm learning!  I like the fact that you can make a really cute card with little effort.  Plus, when you give this to someone it means so much more than buying a card.   Which for some reason I can't really let go of these cards.  Probably because they're my first.  :) 

Well it's been fun catching up, but I gotta get up early tomorrow.  :(   Gotta get ready for a busy day ahead of me.  Goodnite!! 

I have the urge..

...to write.  So I'm apologizing ahead of time if this post sucks! 

I recently joined this group called "20 Something Bloggers".  They have discussions and all this cool stuff.  Well I asked a question on the discussion board, "Who uses tumblr.com?"   (Let me explain: I stumbled on to tumblr.com, and saw that it was really interesting looking.  Thing is it was kinda confusing on how to use it.  So I asked how to use it and all that good stuff.) 

Anyway, back to the point.  Well some of the members were talking about "serious blogging."  I mean what the hell is that?  Is it like a sport or something I should know about?  I'm not trying to diss or anything, but it kinda seems discouraging when people post stuff like that.  Like why can't my blog just be filled with silly stuff?  I mean I started this blog to just write, whatever comes to my mind or what happens in my life.  I don't try to get followers or have people comment, because if you want to read it AWESOME, if you don't then that's fine too.  I just want to have some place where I can rant, praise, comment, or whatever on my life. 

I guess the reason why it was somewhat upsetting is because if you're not a "serious" blogger then you kinda low on the totem pole (or whatever it's spelled or said).  There are people out there that wants to do the same as me, and if they read that then they might get discouraged of writing on their blog again.  I just think that some people take life too seriously.  We don't make it out alive.

Blogging should be a fun activity.  Not something that should be judged or degraded because you're not "serious."  I have enough problems in my life, that I don't need to write or comment about the world's problems.  Gosh, it has a lot of those!   Or having something serious to say.  Sometimes I just don't feel like being serious.

Done with my rant for the day.

I think I'm out of things to say, because my mind just came up blank!  I've been having a lot of those moments here lately.  It gets kinda irritating sometimes, especially at work! 

Which talking about work, I hope it gets a little busy tomorrow.  The past couple of times I have been so bored!  I gotta work all day tomorrow all by myself, and it gets kinda lonely. 

Anyway, I'm going to go on ahead and sign off today.  I just seem to be rambling on now.  Also, sorry no picture today :(

How is your lifestyle?

I found this article while searching on bing for ways to change your lifestyle. This article gives simple steps on how to determine if you need a lifestyle change and to stay motivated!

How to Commit to Lifestyle Change eHow.com

I also found this cute cartoon while doing the search:

It says at the bottom, "Do you realise how many years I've had to work to develop this lifestyle?  And now you're telling me to change it!"  Too funny :)

My lifestyle is:

• Being lazy
• Eating junk food
• Drink nothing but soda
• No exercise
• Eat no veggies or fruits
• Close to zero confidence

What I like my new lifestyle to be:

• At least half of lazy now or less would be better
• Eat 75% less funk food
• Drink more juice & water
• Exercise at least 3 times a week, more would be better
• Eat more veggies and fruits
• Be more confident

I'm not starting it right at this second, but I know where to start.  Plus, I don't want to start so close to New Years, because it would be more like a resolution.  Which I do not do that!  It sets me up for failure, and then I feel bad about myself.  Then I won't do anything for awhile.  So it's best for me not to make new years resolutions. 

I will keep you posted on how I do : ) I might take like a before picture or something, and when I'm successful then I'll post a after picture.  :)

Welcoming the New Year with open arms!

I'm ready to say GOODBYE to 2010, and welcome 2011 with lots of hugs!! 

Let's see what happened in my life in 2010:
   
- Graduated from college (woo hoo!)
- Single for the whole year
- Unemployed for majority of the year
- When employed during this year:
          * Internship was over in April
          * Worked at Portrait Innovations in Sept. &  fired in Oct. (only 3 weeks of employment)  :(
          * Started working at Picture Me! in Nov.  & still working there, yay!!  :)
- Gained a bunch of weight this year ( I know it's silly to mention, but it happened and I don't like it!)
- Having to go through a lot of changes like: finishing school and being unemployed all in the same week.  I'm not good with change and well it took a while to get used it. 
- Worst thing: Daddy passed away.
- 1st White Christmas

That's the major stuff that has happened in my life for 2010.  I can say that I have survived it, and can see another year.  I would like to thank my friends & family for some great memories!  Also, for being there when times got rough.  Let's welcome this new year with open arms, because boy I'm wanting a good year (not the tire btw). 

Fart in Your Face.

What?  Fart in your face?  A funny story that I have to tell ya'll.  I just got back from the hositpal.  I took Mama to have a procedure done.  Everything went good considering.  Anyway, a nurse was checking her groin area where the procedure took place, and all of sudden Mama says, "I got to fart, and you're in that area.  I've been holding it back, but I can't hold it no longer."  To my surprise, the nurse didn't move.  I just started busting out laughing.  In Mama's defense, she was pumped full of meds from the procedure from earlier today. 

It just surprised me that Mama just blurted that out.  She's just a polite lady, and she's talking about farting in some lady's face. 

Anyway, the doctor did tell me that if Mama has anymore problems in the future, they might have to do a bypass surgery.  So basically our family needs to change our lifestyle.  It would be for the best for everyone.  We can simply change our eating habits, and that could make a huge difference in our health.  Plus, if we walk more or exercise more so than we do now, that will also help.  The next couple of days, we will come up with a plan and then execute that plan.  Plus, it goes well with the new year.  Even though I don't make new year's resolutions, this is something that needs to be done.  So wish us luck :)

Drives me bonkers!!!

I feel like smashing my computer to a thousand little pieces.  Then I would set it on fire!!  Then I would pull up a chair, sit back, and eat popcorn.

My internet has been going out multiple times during the day.  Shoot multiple times in within 15 mins.  Then my computer wants to act stupid.  So I usually don't get anything done when that starts happening.  I'm getting so frustrated with this thing, it's not even funny! 

Anyway, on a lighter note.  It was Mama's birthday today!!  We had cake and watched a movie.  It was a pretty cool day today.  She did receive bad news though :(  She has to go in have a test done on her heart on Thursday.  I just hope that the results will come back good.  But then again, the way this year has been going, anything is possible.  I'm telling you, it has been a very rough year for me and my family.  I'm just hoping the new year will be better.  I can only pray for it to be. 

I could probably write a book on just this year of my life.  So much happened in so little time.  God has really been challenging me.  I just hope he lets up for awhile.  I gotta take a breather sometime. 

I never know what to put in this box.

Things I did today:

• Eat
• Sleep
• Watch Tv
• Change the blog's appearance
• Being lazy

I have taken lazy to a whole new level.  I think about doing things. Like doing some scrapbook pages, cleaning, excerising, playing games, etc.  Guess what?  I haven't done any of that today!  I still have some time left today to actually do something. 

Scrapping is fun.  I just feel unsure about how to do it, and so I kinda wing it.  They say there is no right or wrong way of doing it.  As long as you like the outcome, it's all good!  I'm happy with the first two pages.  It seems that I do things on the conserative side.  Wonder if I can change that when I'm doing the scrapbook pages.  I have already done 2 pages so far.  I have 2 other pages to do.  The four pages is of summer camp photos.  Then I'll probably do another page about the time I played basketball & softball for church.  I probably could do another page or two for graduation, and then the same for prom.  I have a lot of photos already printed and then a lot on my computer. 

Anyway, the new year is coming up.  Have ya'll been thinking about your new year's resolutions?  I don't do those, because I always break them anyway.  I like to start things before the new year.  Werid, huh?  If i was going to make a resoultion, it will probably be to lose weight & quit smoking.  The first one is a dead give away.  The second one is something that I have been thinking for awhile.  Considering what has happen to my Daddy, I have given it a lot of thought to quit smoking.  I don't know how to start doing that.  Do ya'll have any pointers? 

I usually put up a picture in every post, and it usuallly aids the blog, but this one is just one I like :)

1st White Christmas EVER!

The picture says it all.  First Christmas to have snow.  The plus is that it sticked :)  I had so much fun this Christmas (besides the fact of being sick).  Mama made an awesome feast.  She made the usual dessert in memory of Grandma.  Then she made potato salad, because Daddy always made it.  She just made it her way, hehe ;) Then of course we had mac & cheese, baked beans, and ham!  YUM YUM!  It was so good! 

I took a lot of pictures today.  When I'm off from work I usually take pictures and do some special effects on them.  I liked doing it before I started working at Picture Me!  So I still do it, even though at work there is a better camera and better programs to do the effects on, but I can't do amateur photography ther ;)  One of the things I do is try different stuff.  Some of it I'm the only one that likes it, and then the others are what people is used to seeing. 

Mama always said that I'm creative, and good at the art stuff.  I consider photography as an art, and she always said that I took really good pictures.  But she is my mother, and mothers tend to say nice things to their children. :)  Anyway, I'm getting to the point soon.  Basically, I'm trying to improve taking pictures, and then creating something with the pictures.  I like special effects, because you can decorate the picture to show the story behind it.  Just adding a certain effect to it can change the mood of the picture. 

I took a picture of the Christmas tree.  You might wonder....where is the tree?  This is one of the pictures that I was trying something different.  If you set the camera on night mode, it flashes twice or three times.  When the second flash goes off, you move the camera in differnt ways (circles, squares, up, down, etc.). This is the product of that happening.  I had so much fun taking pictures of the different ways of moving the camera.  One of the pictures, it looked like the lights were telephones.  It was so neat looking.  Mama actually liked that one.  She didn't like this one on the left.  It's my favorite out of the bunch. 

I did some special effects of this pic.  I did a boost of the colors, white vignette, and text.  I also did other special effects on the same picture, and it turned out really cool!  I usually don't use the heat map effect on pictures, but it turned out great on this one.  Here, have a look:

I really like how this picture turned out.  Kinda looks like a tornado, hehe.  

Anyway, I did some scrapbooking today, but I won't show pictures until I'm finished with it.  I do know one thing, I need to get my facts straight until I actually start doing the pages.  I wrote down that the summer camps started in 2007, when I stopped going to camps long before that.  So one of my pages has it scratched out, and it looks kinda sloppy :(

I had a awesome Christmas!  I hope that everyone else did too!! 

Task #21

Task #21 was to get professional family portraits done.  We had them taken on 12.3.10.  I know I'm a little late posting this up, but I've been pretty busy here lately.  Anyway, this one of the family photos taken.  I will add more, and some that has the special effets to them (which I did with picnik.com).  Which I did end up purchasing the premium membership for the website.  Since I'm always on it now. 

The reason why I wanted these done was because we have never gotten family portraits done.  I wish that daddy could have been in them, but he wouldn't have agreed do them anyway.  I know since I asked him a while back, and he said NO!  lol.  That's my daddy.  He didn't like having his pictures taken. 

Original Photos:



Special Effects:

PS - I didn't add all the images, because my computer is starting to act stupid.  But you get the idea.  We had pictures taken, and I did my own special effects.

Task #56

I have finally sent out the Christmas cards this year.  It was a task on my list that I have made last month. 

I enjoyed filling out the cards, and writing the addresses on the enevolpes.  Even though it was just a task on my list, I believe I will continue to do this for the years to come.  I was filled with the holiday spirit.  In the past years, I haven't been in the Christmas mood.  But I think doing these cards did the trick for me.

I know the picture just has a bunch of enevolpes in it.  I wanted to protect the privacy of the people that I'm sending them to.  Also, I don't want to spoil the surprise before people actually had a chance to see the cards.   :)  I just wanted to show the stack of cards that I will be sending out this year.  Maybe next year, it will be a bigger stack.  Plus, I know now to get more prepared for it.  This year it was more a last minute thing.  But now I know that I enjoy doing it, and I will do a better job next year.  :)

I still have to do some Christmas shopping for this year.  I have gotten some people's gifts already.  Now I just need to get my family's gifts.  I wish I had a little bit more money so I can get them nice gifts.  Since they have been there for me.  Especially this year, I have been through enough for this year to last me for awhile. 

I have been looking through some old photos from my childhood.  I think I'm going to do some scrapbooking.  I don't really know where to start though.  The great thing is it is on my task list, yay!  :)  I have some ideas on what to do, but don't know if it would fit the occasion.   I will figure out something. 

Where to begin?

It's been a little over a week since daddy passed away.  I miss him so much!!  I'm thinking about getting a tattoo in his memory.  Still trying to figure out what to get to express him.  I know that he liked roses, guns, and knives.  lol.  Some mix, right?

Still working at Picture Me! in Dorman Center.  I haven't been fully trained yet, but can't wait to get on the camera!  :)    I can't say this enough, "I like working for this company!"  I just wish it was a full-time job.  I really need the money.  I have student loan payments to pay, and then to help out with bills for the family.  It's kinda hard to do that when you have a seasonal part time job.  I'm hoping that I will get hired on.   But if I don't, then what can I do?

Anyway, I bought the Zumba Fitness game.  I tried it out for a little bit, and it's really fun!!  I haven't heard of it until one day, someone posted a status saying they just got back from Zumba.  So I did some research on it, and well I just ended up buying the game.  Let's hope I'll stick with it, and lose some of this weight.   I know I would feel better, and have more energy.  I put a picture of the logo to the left.  The music is a latin genre.  Basically, you try to follow the dance steps.  They have different levels of dificutly.  Well needless to say I'm on beginner :)

About my Daddy

It's been a week now since we took him to the hosiptal.  He came home last Tuesday (11/16/10).   We found out that he has cancer in both lungs, liver, and right kidney.  The doctor said that he has 3 to 6 months to live.  That he's too far along to have treatment.  The cancer that he has is the kind that spreads fast.  So he has come home to be comfortable.  He's happy being home with his family.  I do ask for prayers for my family.  It has been tough since we have found out about the cancer.  I love my daddy very much!  He has lived a full life.  He always made sure there was a roof over my head and food in my belly.  He taught me the meaning of being honest and hardworking.  Also, he raised me to help people in need.  That there is always someone out there that has it worse than me.  To appreciate what we have, and don't take things for granted.  He always expected me to do the best I can, and that he knows I can do whatever I want if I put my mind to it.  He always made sure that he did what needed to be done for the family.  I am his daughter.  I'm just like him in so many ways.  Mama usually calls me "Terry Junior."  :) 

A lot of you haven't ever seen my daddy.  Here is a picture of him with my uncle.

Daddy is on the left. 

The tattoo on his arm is of the marines.  He served in the military.  My uncle (on the right) just retired from the military.  My daddy has served on the police force and in the fire department.  He was proud of the work that he done. He was always helping people that was in need. He is a very kind hearted person. He was always there for my mama and the family. I just wanted ya'll to know how great my daddy is. He has done a lot in life, and never asked for recognition for it. I want to give him the credit that he deserves.


Please pray for my daddy and family.  He's not doing so well right now. 

The Sky & Me

It's raining here today.  I figured this picture was perfert.  I love these kind of pictures too.  So a win win.   Anyway, my daddy has been in the ICU since Sunday.  He's coming home today.  Which I'm glad.  I do miss him.  We also received bad news yesterday about him.  I've been crying since Sunday night.  What lies ahead is going to be a long and rough road.  But I plan to be there for my family.  No matter what. 

I am a Thorne, and proud of it.  All because of my daddy!

Am I a human ATM?

The title speaks for itself!  I stopped talking to this guy, because he thought I was his human atm.  For example, he asked for 3 big ticket items.  He wanted a laptop ($300+), rims ($1500), and not a cheap cell phone ($100+).  So yeah.  We are not even dating or anything.  We was just friends.  Now you tell me....would you buy those things for someone that you're just talking to?  He got mad at me for not wanting to buy those things for him.  I'm sorry, but I wasn't put on this earth to buy expensive things for a guy like him. 

Let me explain the situation more clearly:

We started talking back in June.  We would hang out and all that great stuff.  It was nothing serious.  I do admit that I would buy food and stuff like that for him, because I won't deny anybody food.  I wasn't raised like that.  Anyway, then he would start asking for shoes and things like that.  He would tell me that it's for work, and I would feel bad.  So I did buy those things also (big mistake!).  I told him about my past.  How I used to support my ex's.  I learned my lesson when it comes to buying or paying for big things.  But it seems like if you try to help out with the little things, then they expect the bigger things too.  Anyway, one day out of the blue he says, "I want to be single."  Ok, that's fine by me.  He still wanted to talk to me and everything.  Which I usually don't do, because I like a clean break for a little bit.  So I can straighten out things mentally, etc.  Well he kept asking me to do things for him.  Some I did, because it was important.  Then when he starts asking for a laptop, that's when I put my foot down.  He got so mad at me that he stopped talking to me for awhile.  Then he will call back to see if I changed my mind.  Then he would say well you let your exs use you.  That I'm not like that, and I still talk to you.  He was basically saying, "I'm different from them, so you should buy me those expensive things."  Total BS!  So I reached the point to where I don't care if we talk or anything!  I know that some of it is my fault for just letting it be the little things.  But I can't help it.  When someone asks for help, I try my best to help them.  When is it ok to help someone, and when is it not?  How do you really know if someone is for real, or if they're not?  I mean if the person cared for me, would they get mad at me for saying no?  I wouldn't think so.  He used to say things like, "Well if you dont', then I'll find another girl to do it for me." Or my favorite one,"I treat you right, and you don't do anything for me."  Things like that made me feel bad.  So I guess it's just my insecurity playing it's part in this whole mess.  So what I need to do is stop worrying about if I'll ever get married or anything like that.  Just worry about me and focus on me! 

It seems one of the most important things in life for people is to fall in love and do the whole family/marriage thing.  I believe that I have made that one, one of my own.  I apparently look for love in all the wrong places.   I should just let it take its course, and go with the flow.  If I do get to be a bride one day, then so be it.  I'm tired of the heartache and rejection I receive. 

On a lighter note:

I'm still enjoying my job!  That's a major plus :)  I got to hang out with the bestie today!  Here she is:

Karly

We had some lunch from Chickfila (my favorite place to eat!).  We went to the mall, and then back to her house.  We just enjoyed chatting and goofing around.  We are going to start working out again.  Which I can't wait, I really need to lose some of this extra weight.  I had a really good day hanging with her. 

I also got to take some pics of my dog, Rosie.  Then of a Christmas catus.  The catus used to be my grandma's, but she passed away back in '08.  So my mom has been taking care of it ever since.  My grandma loved her catus.  So this year it has finally bloomed :) 

Rosie, my lab :)

Christmas Catus

It's starting to bloom

Today was a good day!!  I didn't talk to the guy all day!  I hung out with my best friend.  Plus, I got to take a lot of pictures!  :)   I'm going to go to bed, and hope for another good day tomorrow!  Goodnite everyone!